Last Night

I realized last night that I need something. I need the drive. I need to get something inside me that helps me do what I need to do.

I'm so tired all the time. I have so much that I'm doing with my two. #1 is in cheerleading and #2 is cutting teeth. I just don't have any energy. I want so bad to do something for me but when it gets to be the time I can actually get my fat butt on the eliptical I'm so tired I just want to stare at the wall. I don't know what to do. I want to be healthy so badly. I hate looking at myself in the mirror. I don't know what to do.

I think I'm going to take some time this weekend and research a bit. I really want to know how movement effects one's body. I know that it's a good thing, I just want to know exactly what it does.

I need to have a powerful WHY!

um yeah.....

Well today is Tuesday and I have been doing rather well with the eating. I eat about every 3-4 hours and most of the time it's pretty good stuff. I say most of the time because I sneak in cookies some of the time. The only thing that I need to do now is keep on track and start up the exercise. Tonight I'm going to get moving. My chest feels better and I feel better, so tonight is the night.

I think that I'm going to cut down on my carbs. I think that's a good idea. I eat a lot of bad for me carbs. I'm not talking about cutting everything out completely but I'm going to cut out most the sweets and things like that.

Blah to the blah

So.......

Not so much to report today. I'm down another pound, so that is amazing.

I have been under the weather so my family had to suffer through sandwiches for dinner last night. At least they had grapes with their sandwiches.

Yesterday I did really well with my eating. I was super hungry when I got home though so I went ahead and ate my sandwich, homemade chicken salad, and 6 cookies. Yea, I said it, SIX cookies. I ate them before 5:30 though so that is better then eating it after, right? I didn't eat anything after that unless you count the medicine my husband woke me up to take.

I totally hate that I ate those 6 cookies. I wasn't hating it at the time though. It made me feel good until I got done and realized what I had done. Apparently I had gone into a cookie comma. It must have been the combination of the chocolate chips and the little colored candies. Who really knows how it happens. All I know is that I came to with chocolate on my face and hands. Oh well, I shall not eat them today. Unless I feel the need, no, not going to do it!

Down with the sickness...

You have to be, with one kid in the school system and the other in daycare. My house was a bundle of nastiness this weekend. Snot, boogers, and loogies were flying all about in my house this weekend. It's funny, I never knew a 4 month old could shoot snot rockets that far until this past weekend.

The most lovely part about having children is when they are so awesome enough to share their lovely sickness with you because Lord knows that is the only thing they will share with you.

Good news on the weight front though. I guess a diet of snot and phlegm is good for one's weight loss goals. I am down 4 pounds now. I did start losing a little last week before the nastiness and I still tried to not eat so terribly. Yesterday I kinda blew it though; I had a HUGE sweet tooth and then right after it was satisfied I was hit with the urge to eat very salty. Not so good. For dinner I made homemade chicken noodle soup and it was yummy. Not too many calories so that was good.

Today I'm hoping to get back on the 1200 calorie thing. WISH ME LUCK!

1, 2, 3, no let's make it 4 cheddar biscuits

Gross, I was a total nasty mess yesterday!

I had the right intentions. I made my lunch, well my husband did, and I brought healthy snacks. All of that went in the pooper though. My mom/boss landed a HUGE account yesterday so she wanted to buy lunch. Great idea, free lunch. Of all the restaurants where we live she has to pick Red Lobster. I had a really yummy pasta with shrimp and lobster and a lite white sauce with tomatoes and asparagus. That was so good and not too bad. The terrible part is that they put those STUPID biscuits on the table. Stupid server lady. Did I look like I needed them? Apparently I did because I ate 4, yes 4 biscuits. You can just call me a fat ass! I also had ranch on my salad. What a pig.

Anyway, Dustin's parents cooked yummy chicken and shrimp fried rice last night. I ate a plateful of that. I didn't eat any sweets yesterday though, so I guess that's a plus.

Today is a new day and I'm going to be better. I say that as I'm eating an apple dipped in milk and white chocolate, caramel, and pecans. At least it's a fruit right? I do have a good reason though. It's really something that I can't help. You will have to talk to the man up stairs about it ;)

Lunch will be better. I'm like my friend Lindsey. I can't call it a failure because if I do then all Hell will break loose, lol.

mmmmm coffee

So today is a great day. I actually did what I said I was going to do last night. I WORKED OUT!!!! If you can't tell I'm a little excited and proud of myself.

I seemed to have a bit more energy today but I'm not sure if it's the exercise or the half pot of coffee I drank. I feel really good today.

I don't really know exactly how many calories I ate because I don't know the calorie count of the chicken and rice I ate. Dinner was really good though. I cooked chicken thighs in olive oil in a frying pan. I put a little garlic salt on them and cooked them until they had a light golden brown crust, yummy so good. I also cooked baby green beans and rice pilaf. My husband put the leftovers in a little container for me for lunch today.

Tonight I'm going to do my 20 minutes again. I hope I can head out of work early because I'm having dinner at the in-law's tonight. If not I will have to hit up the elliptical after the kiddos go to bed.